Ever think about ...

... how your knees work? Or rather how they're supposed to work? I just walked down the hall and back and I can feel the rocking motion of bone against bone with each step. No, it isn't a good feeling. I am trying really hard to believe that the Orthopedic Surgeon is going to be able to "fix it." But there is a part of me that is afraid that this will fall one more victim to the "if you would just lose weight" excuse! Yeah, I need to lose weight! Lots and lots of it! But I feel like I am fighting an uphill battle!

• I am genetically pre-disposed towards obesity.
• I have a lifetime of poor eating habits.
• My ability to exercise is severely limited by whiplash, arthritis, and now a torn meniscus (and yes, I think 3 or 4 times a day about the potential for damaging my right knee).
• I have had at least 5 steroid injections (plus an oral steroid) in the last 6 months
• I have BOTH insulin resistance AND hypothyroidism, each of which makes weight loss very difficult
• I take several prescription medications which have a side effect of weight gain
• etc.

I'm not despairing ... just frustrated and worried. And maybe everything will be okay. Maybe I will be pleasantly surprised. In the meantime I'm tired of being in pain and some times it is difficult to see the UP side to all of this.