Confused and Frustrated

... but still blessed!

We've been having a technical issue with Dish Network. About a month ago I bought a BIG (2 Tb?) External Hard Drive to connect to my DISH HDTV Receiver so we could save even more movies and tv shows for later viewing. (Like we need massive amounts of time wasters on hand!) They actually have the nerve to charge a "one time service fee" of about $50 to flip whatever switch allows that connection. Josiah then downloaded most of the movies, etc. that were taking up space on the DISH Receiver freeing up tons of space. All good ... right? Well that's where I get confused! We can tell that the space has been taken up on the External Hard Drive but we cannot access what's on there. Grrrrrr ... so today I called DISH and they had me change a few settings here and there and then told me it should work now, thanks for calling. Except I don't know what we changed and I still can't see anything in the My Media folder! Not calling back today though because it wouldn't take a whole lot to frustrate me into tears!

My knee really aches today. The brace helps. The ice helps. Staying off it helps. It still hurts! A lot! And it seems like everyone has an opinion about what may or may not be wrong and what I should or shouldn't do to diagnose, repair, prevent future problems, etc. Bert says that even when I can walk again he doesn't want me to go to water aerobics. He thinks I should just do upper body with weights and stretching. I hear where he's coming from but that opinion completely ignores the reality of the issue with my neck and left arm. So if I can't put weight on my feet and I can't lift weight with my left arm ... what the heck can I do? And my doctors say that water exercise is a good idea and one of the best things I can do. So I don't want him to tell me that I can't do that! I KNOW I need to be more careful and not overdo but I need to be allowed to do what I can when I can! In the meantime other friends and family want me to consider this and that and the other and goodness knows I appreciate that they are concerned for me and want to find ways to help. And some of it bears some consideration. I'm just way beyond frustrated! And the one person that I really want to be giving me answers and ideas and options (my doctor) says wait and see!

I feel about 99% sure that I am going to wind up needing an MRI so I really wish I could go do that today or tomorrow instead of waiting til next week when I will have to take time off work to go do it! And I really don't like MRIs so I would rather go do it than wait in dread of it! And the lack of answers is a big problem for me ... I can imagine far worse possibilities than what may be the case. So I'm trying not to go there. Sigh ...

Bert met a friend at McAlister's Deli for lunch today so I asked him to bring me a sandwich. Horseradish, Roast Beef and Cheddar Panini. Yum! I enjoyed it thoroughly until I went to the McAlisters website for nutrition information. 800+ calories! It's not horrible but I am trying to maintain a 1250+ deficit between calories burned and calories consumed. When I'm active ... no problem. When I spend the whole day in a recliner with ice on my knee it's a lot harder to get the necessary burn. So I'm trying to strictly limit calories and 800+ wasn't on the agenda for lunch!