Not That I'm Questioning The Almighty

But doesn't it seem that knee surgery and allergies were enough? Did I really have to be "blessed" with a urinary tract infection as well? It really is not at all convenient as each and every hobble from chair or bed to bathroom and back again is quite the painful experience. Oh well ... I suppose it is encouraging some movement of my knee which I might otherwise be tempted to sit and let "freeze up." And it is undoubtedly my own fault for picking my Coke Zero addiction back up where I dropped it off rather than enjoying the more healthy water option. Whatever ... I am not entirely enjoying my life at the moment!

Hubby has not made it to the grocery store yet so food options are a bit limited. Plus nothing really sounds too good. I could graze through the pasta and Chinese leftovers that are taking up refrigerator space but neither is tempting my taste buds! I snacked through a package of graham crackers earlier. Then a bit ago I scrounged through the cabinets and came away with a single serving of peanut butter. (Buying peanut butter in single serving packs was an act of self defense when I found that I could eat a whole jar of peanut butter one spoonful at a time in a single sitting.) The nutritional area in which our pantry and chill chests (as Alton Brown calls them) are most severely lacking is the area of (unhealthy and indulgent) snack foods! I want key lime pie, cheesecake, ice cream with hot fudge, oreo cookies, bagels and cream cheese, nachos, quesadillas, etc. I'd also like some orange juice and various cranberry juices. Those are at least good choices for one who is currently spending more time feeling a need to gotta go right now than is the norm. The more sugary and salty choices I will admit that I should veer away from. But there is much in my nature that says, "You are suffering. You deserve to indulge!" Whether or not, or to what degree, I will listen to the callings of vice and/or reason depends partly on which items I write onto the grocery list and how closely hubby follows said list! He just asked me what time the store opens (24 hours ... imagine that) so there is a fair chance that our larder will be restocked before I drag myself out of bed tomorrow morning!

I've been sitting here in my recliner much of the day watching a small slice of the day outdoors between the lacy curtain panels in our front door window. I can't see much outside ... the weather (be it sunny as it was earlier or cloudy as it is now), a few tree branches, the roof line of the church across the street, and our tattered flag, which has come loose from it's tightly rolled up state, and is flapping sometimes gently in a breeze, others wildly in the wind! We live on a major street in North Tulsa and lots of traffic finds it's way past our humble home. I can't see the cars from my seat here in the corner but I hear the tires whooshing against the pavement with a sound that makes me wonder if it's been raining. Interesting the things that you think about, wonder and write of as you sit and wait to feel better.

I always wanted our home to be one where young people gathered. To be a place filled with warmth and laughter and soda and pizza. Prayers and praises and music and all the wonderful things that come with gatherings of vibrant young lives. So as I sit here in the living room and hear rowdy music and youthful laughter on the other side of the wall I am gladdened by the life and love that has found it's way into my home. Even if that does mean an increase in the pizza budget!

Hope life is treating you and yours well today! Be blessed and be a blessing!

Beth